Dating would probably be easier if I actually went out on a date

Friday I was supposed to meet this guy for dinner, whether it was supposed to be a date or not... I'm not entirely certain. Either way, I cancelled... I was tired and I don't know, I guess not particularly interested in going. Nothing against the guy really, he's very nice, attractive, has a good job blah blah blah but eh. Tomorrow I am meeting a friend for coffee after I get back to the train station. This was another would be date that I have managed to scale back to "hey let's just hang out and chill or whatever". I'm really good at that. Dating, in general, makes me nervous so I don't really like it. I'm also not particularly good at small talk, so that can kind of be an issue. Ahhh I don't know. I know what I want and perhaps that's the worst part. I'm thinking I need to settle a little... compromise maybe. I don't want to settle though. I should just get another cat.