Sometimes things get a little frustrating, sometimes they get a little confusing

Almost always they seem to be both at the same time. My internship is now not starting until the 6th of February which IS okay. It just means that I will have to do 13 hours a week instead of 10 to make up for lost time. My textbooks... were mailed to another student and it seemed as if they would never get here. We are now in the 3rd week of the semester and I was pretty ready to go to the book store demanding that they fix this. I need to my books in order to do any of my homework. My books finally arrived today. The mail person, however, placed them on top of the bushes outside of my house... in snow... by the time I saw it the packaging had soaked up all of the water and on of my books is all weird and wavy right now. Hopefully it's not ruined. Anyway, at least I have them so I can do my work. I had an Italian exam yesterday that, through no fault but my own, I was rather ill prepared for. Lately my get up and go seems to have gotten up and left... with out me. Mainly I've just felt pretty defeated, not having my books, not being able to start the internship, and job woes. It's as if every step forward is thwarted by life.

So that's the current frustration aspect of my life. My love life is the confusing part. Naturally. I'm pretty sure I am almost always confused about my love life, or lack thereof for that matter. Things with the on again off again guy are off again it seems. I haven't heard much from him lately. I have no clue what is going with the BFF, what's going to happen when he comes home, etc. I try not to think about it much, it makes me very nervous and anxious and my heart does weird things. In the meantime, I've been asked out by two different guys so there's that. I said yes, not because I have any real particular interest in either of them but because I don't know what is going on and I can't come up with a good reason to not go out for dinner with someone. I know it's a bit awful of me, I'm most likely leading them on but I really just want to be around people. Have some conversation that is not through text, skype, or facebook. I want to talk about books and things. I want someone to see me. I've been feeling pretty invisible lately.

So that's that I guess. I've dealt with things lately how I normally do... I have baked things, cookies to be exact. So many cookies. So many delicious cookies.